Akshay Shah

With all the media hype about India emerging as a global superpower, it is very ironic that whenever i travel by an auto and when it comes to a halt due to traffic or some other reason, small kids come near the auto and beg for money. Leaving aside their deplorable physical condition, there is one question in their eyes- “WHY YOU AND WHY NOT ME?”Why is it that they have to beg and we are sitting comfortably inside an auto?Those eyes tend to haunt me because i dont have any answer to that question. Those eyes keep on asking me that question and i lookup in the skies to find an answer but i find none.I don’t know whether this message is going to reach the place where it is supposed to or not but here’s asking “God, WHY?”

“Dear God, I am very worried because I have not killed anyone oflate. It disturbs me to tell you that i am not carrying out my duties from 6-8:30pm. I have nightmares of not being able to use the rifle to good effect. I am short on practice of throwing Hand-grenades and i realise that my fingers are getting weaker on the “A D” letters on the keyboard. I have to refer the dictionary to find out the synonyms of frags, score and deaths. I miss my terrorist gang as it’s been months since we have been out of our jobs. I am unable to speak certain sentences such as “Aage dekh”, “Bomb plant kar”, “Upar hai”, “Abe ‘A’ pe chalo”,“Lambe raste pe hain”, “Maaraa”, “Bomb daal, bomb daal”, “Khopche main hain dekh”.“All these are affecting me as a terrorist and i am not able to see what will happen with my appraisal as i have no headshots credited to my name. My PM would not like if my frags are low and if we do not win the game. God, i request you to please consider our case and do the needful otherwise i might end up only spectating the entire game while others play. Thanking you for all the time that you allowed me to commit such heinous crimes. Please God, for once listen to the terrorists and grant our wish and let there be Counter-strike.” My day starts with this prayer and i hope you guys are also praying.Copyright © 2007-TillSomeoneGivesUsAHeadshot Tyler Durden - All rights reserved.

Sometimes i feel like having questions which probably have no answer or are mentally and emotionally draining. The biggest ‘Y’ that i have encountered so far is the need to speak out. Y do people who know you from a long time fail to understand you, your feelings and the unspoken language that has been developed between you and them over a period of time. Y? Y is the world so in favour of out-spoken, extrovert people or is it my illusion? Y is it necessary to market yourself? Y? Y, even in times of distress, the people whom you trust the most, fail you! Y cannot people understand things through your eyes? And even if they do, Y are they acting as if they don’t ? Is it just that, puking out the feelings gives the impression that they are honest and real. Y does the world have languages when one universal language can be spoken across the world? I don’t know Y i feel this way… and i even dont know Y i am posting this here… maybe i also have to provide my thoughts a medium of expressing itself !

“Finally” is what my friends would exclaim after i tell them about my blog. I had been interested in starting my own blog from a longtime but i somehow failed to get a kick start. But here it is.The name of the blog may sound weird, so let me clarify.I am a big fan of the movie ’Fight Club’ and i have always dreamt of having a club based on similar lines; jokes apart,its just my way of paying tribute to the movie. The ‘A’ club artwork is done by my cousin ‘V’, which is inspired from Fight Club’s DVD cover and needless to say that he has done a fantastic job. Hope to enjoy the new experience of blogging, till i post again… take care… adios!